I fucked the four horsemen and made them my bitches

Day three!

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 22:09:59 GMT

Well I am on day three of loosing my fat WOW ass. Stupid computer games anyway. My body feels like it's been run over by a truck a few times but it's good to know I can still do a 6k road march. I think I figured something out on my hike today though. I used to be pissed off about a lot of shit back in the day but now I've pretty much come to terms with it all. It's a good think in a way but it also leaves something lacking. It just seems easier to torture yourself with exercize when your all emo and angsty. Now I actually have to push myself to do it. It's a good thing all in all but it makes it a little more difficult. OOOh wait, I know what will piss me off again! I'll quit smoking and get into politics, that'll piss anyone off. There again, that might set up to do something stupid. Wouldn't be the first time. DAMN THE MAN! Where's my gun?

Weekend

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 21:00:34 GMT

I think I know why the decided to call our weekends "drill weekends". I sat in a briefing room for SIX HOURS, yesterday listening to EO, ROE, EPW, and and assortment of other briefings! I'd rather have been in a dentist chair. Dooshbags, well at least that only has to happen once a year.

So I think I am going to look for some part time employment untill I leave for Missouri in the spring. Somthing in the evening again I think. Just to get from here to there without going into too much debt. Bleh, I really don't want to go back to Ft. Lost-in-the-woods again. That place sucks donky balls. There again I'll probably look like that
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again so it isn't all bad :). Watch out ladies, muhahaha!

Welp, not much else is going on, I'm going to be heading to the merc on fri. or sat. so let me know if anyone wants to go. So far it's gonna be don, alan, myself and a couple chicks that don knows. Seek and destroy!

Birthday thingy

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 17:23:13 GMT

Sooo, I am going to the premier of Blanchard Hill on saturday instead of the Merc like I first anticipated. The reason I am not doing both is because I have to escort my sister to wyoming and we leave this sunday morning. Either way, I am going out to the Sports Keg today for drinks with whoever wants to come out and hang, nothing special just friends chillin'. I may have something the weekend after next but I don't know. Either way, there it is.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 05:53:54 GMT

You asked me a question once, what has you sweating when you wake up sweating in the middle of the night. You still wanna know?
I been thinkin' about it. Thinkin' about it a lot, it's not the work, I love the work, I've always loved the work. It's the game, the game even. I was so good at it, I made sure all the right people liked me, at night I'd do the checklist in my mind. Am I cool with you, how about him?Am I cool with all the people tat can help me, am I cool with all the people that can hurt me? Everyone that thought I was weak or a looser?There was nobody that I was offending... Nobody that I loved... that gave me the edge. But guess what? There is somthing outside of the game, that is how to live, and you know what scares me even more? That I am going back in, forgive me, I'm going back in the game. I'll make you like me again. I'll do the work, I'll do all the work, just put me back in the game! I just want back in the game, look at me, just look at me, I just want you to take me for who I am. Please, don't hurt me, I just want you to believe in me again. Just believe in me again. I never wanted to hurt you. Just give me another chance....

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 05:17:52 GMT

Just gopt back from harborview. I burned the fuck out of my hand and had to go to the burn center. Fun stuff... I am high as hell on pain killers but I will post pics and add more of my painful and interesting adventure. Boo stupid burning, hooray hospitals and good friends and family!

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 14:50:45 GMT

The new spiderman trailer

Hi, I am still alive and this looked neat!

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 20:06:13 GMT

LIVE TRUMPS 1.1

watch plkavitch fight

CREATE YOUR CARD

more on the realiszation on balance.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 02:10:09 GMT

Upon further examination of the theory of the three spheres I have discovered what the third dimension is. It turns out it is not a dimension but rather a result of the interlocking of the three spheres, an equalateral triangle, the most stable structure or formula known to man. Here I have found the base or "core" of my idea. Thus proving that it is true that to achieve a perfect or near perfect balance there must be only the three because of what it represents in it's essence. balance and stability. To give a brief example of the many out there, and I choose this one because it relates to people more than theothers, the debate. When one person is solving a problem he goes with whatever he can come up with and what seems logical and correct in his own mind. When two people are trying to solve a problem there can be an eternal (and usually is) debate and argument about who is correct and who is incorrect. However, when a third person is added to the problem there can be resolution because you have a one more to offset one side or the other. This is the first number that is reach negative or positive that can achieve balance on a three dimensional scale. There is something further to this that still eludes me. I need to sleep and continue this idea once I have had sufficiant rest

More on the theory of balance

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 09:25:04 GMT

HA! You guys thought that was cool, check this out... ok, so, the balance theory that I

stumbled upon earlier in the day has expanded to encompass a more elaborate and diverse

theory. It is compiled as such,

Imagine if you will, three, interconnected, spherical and three dimensional objects. All of

them rotating on their axis and in constant motion. Three rings connected to create the

sphere connecting at six points. I choose six in order to also add another dimension within

the sphere. Creating another dimensional aspect,a coned effect inside the spheres expanding

not only in the positive but also in the negative, thus creating an invisible fourth

dimension I like to think of as the "Quantum Foam" of my theory. I have yet to discover a

way to define this added dimension but this is still a theory in progress. Regardless, this

theory which I am sure makes little to no sense written out in just words can be summarized

in a written schematic that I am still working through. That being said I am going to need a

lot of help and information in order to elaborate and perfect my discovery of a

revolutionary way to balance the most creative and destructive force on the planet; people.

From the dawn of time (debated and debatable to different groups, religions, and

ethnicities) we all have one thing in common. We are all imperfect true? We all make

mistakes?Well this imperfection is created by the imbalance caused by the rigors and trials

of the uncertainty of the world around us. The reason I believe that this balancing process

is necessary has already been explained in my previous post. And there is a point in which

we are all comfortable as far as the combining extremes of the positive and negative (think

again of temperature) Although it is slightly different for all of us it is still attainable

for everyone. Imagine temperature on a three dimensional scale rather than two, now break

down the human psychological makeup and there you have it,
MIND (sphere #1)
BODY (sphere #2)
SPIRIT (sphere #3)

Now there are certain things in life that I can use as examples that everyone can understand. Example one, alcohol, not entirely destructive in nature, the abuse or imbalance of this substance can cause a great shift in our spheres. Take for example the physical aspect, loss of motor skills, very basic, hence the staggering and slurring of speech. The emotional aspect, instability, erratic change due to little or no outside stimulation, and general loss of control. Then the mental aspect comes into play, impaired judgment, lack of order, or the complete loss of memory all together. See what I mean? All are connected yet separate at the same time. Another major cause of imbalance is stress. Hence post traumatic stress disorder. Immersed in such a stressful environment as war, problematic and violent childhood, sexual assault, or any combination of stressors that may cause a violent shift in your own personal balance. Therefore what I am looking for is a way to return the order from the chaos, a way to control all the aspects of the human psyche.

There are still holes that I have to fill and variables that have to be considered yet this

is the basic concept. If anyone has any ideas let me know. Thanks for taking the time to

read this.

Absolution

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 17:28:37 GMT

There is a balance, a balance that has been distorted, it's so fucking obvious that I don't think many people realize it.

#1 No matter how you look at it, there ARE absolutes. Not that they have not been transcended by certain individuals, they exist none the less. Example, we have all been too cold, true? We have all been too hot is this not also true? Weather or not we believe that this unbalance of something so simple to avoid it is still an absolute. Too cold can kill you and too hot can as well. Therefore proving that the lack of balance is not only dangerous, also, taken to the furthest extremes can be deadly.

#2 There are enigmatic results to the decisions that you make, jump into a fire and your going to get burned, regardless of the reasons that you might immerse yourself in an inferno, you still are going to get burned.

#3 We are all vulnerable to the imbalance of nature its self, life in it's imbalance like the aforementioned examples exist in many different avenues, think of this, emotions, chemicals, weight, or something as simple as simple or as common place as temperature.

I don't really know what all that means but I was inspired to scrawl my thoughts upon the waves of this tool of free information and indulge myself in the thought, although fanciful it may be, the thought is still there that I am traveling upon a path of enlightenment that may finally come to a conclusion that is beneficial, to the people around me.

Then again I may just need to be institutionalized.

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 07:49:33 GMT

I was rather surprised at the results from this test. I guess that's what I get for being honest.

HELLISH
Your life has been 77% difficult.

It's possible you were joking when you took the test. If not, I'd like to say I'm sorry.

Based on your family, money, political context, and personal situation -- during the important years of your development -- it appears your life was HELLISH. It...sucked. I hope you have a place to vent about this. A diary for example. Use ink, not blood.

The "difficulty" of your life is a measure of how rough you've had it. Undoubtedly, you've struggled to survive. You therefore deserve the highest possible score: hellish.

I have a new test! Straight males and gay/bi females, check out my brand new How Low Are Your Sex Standards Test

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on difficult

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Thu, 09 Mar 2006 10:17:13 GMT

HA! I feel like a trend starter! Well even though Alan had an account b4 me, there are a lot of people on myspace now that wern't previously and now your all addicted!!!! Muhahaahaaa! NE way, I am feeling better about life thanks to all my awesome friends, you guys rock my face. Now to my other addiction, WoW. Dude, I am turning into the biggest geek!

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 13:12:52 GMT

FUCK! they shut down all the damn servers for WoW I am sooooo pissed off right now you guys!!!!!!

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 07:29:04 GMT

I don't want to be here now, I want to plug my stupid computer in and play games.... EVERYONE LEAVE!!!!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 02:01:45 GMT

I am so damaged, I need sleep but I am being defiant or however the fuck you spell that.

Happy VD I hope everyone gets it!

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 01:41:16 GMT

I wish the best to all in receiving/spreading their venereal diseases!

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 12:30:28 GMT

I think that the monkey running my brain finally had a heart attack

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 07:20:50 GMT

Hmmm update, I'm hiding in Rockport working at my parents house all next week. My brother and I are going to try and finish the remodel so it can be sold. The big V day plans I had are kind of shot now for reasons I wish not to disclose at this moment. But trust me, it's a VERY good reason. I feel like I have been hibernating for the last month even though I have gone out a time or two. I just feel like I haven't been connecting with anybody, that's weird for me. I guess working on the weekends kind of limits your interactions. That and being intoxicated when I am out and about doesn't help. I feel kind of like a ghost. I'm not dead am I? Cause that wouldn't surprise me if I really was a ghost. Creepy to think about.... being a ghost. You think your alive and interacting with people but your really not. *shudder* I'm gonna stop that now. So yeah, just sitting here at work being bored. I might wright some more later.

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 07:38:22 GMT

I feel like killing something, anyone have a busted ass tv that needs twelve-guaging?
P.S. I'm sick

That is all.

Jesse

Isn't going to type anymore.

After this.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 21:12:36 GMT

FUCK THAT! I AM NOT GOING TO WAR IN IRAN!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! You fucking crazy FUCKS!

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 19:49:15 GMT

"...If someone tries to kill you, you try to kill them right back!..." ~ CPT Malcolm Reynolds

Ok so I am fucking hooked like a fish, fuck you Heather for making me watch that movie!

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 16:51:15 GMT

OWWWWWWWW!!!! Fucking half pirhana chicks anyway! God, I can understand being rough but it doesn't mean chewing my lower lip off crazy bitchez. RUNAWAY! So yeah, made out with a few chicks the other night, heheheh good times! Still haven't had sex since "the scare" it's kinda nice. Almost like being responsible or something. Anyway, I think I am about to be done with the landscapeing thingy, fucking retard boss anyway good riddance I say anyway. Haven't smoked in the last 48 hours or so, we'll just see how that goes on it's own. Feel like running if I wasn't so tired. ah well, screw you guys, I'm going home!

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 21:59:39 GMT

Sweet, I still have a freakin hangover. I just downed 2 bottles of Gatorade and took three advil. Hope that does the trick. Fuck me and my drinking all night long. Ah well, back to WoW and antisocial,non painful behavior. Then to work again missing yet another night of the fetish. Good times, great galloping groin gators. I immersion in my fantastical world of pretend goals and ultimately pointless relationships with like minded geeks.

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 17:52:31 GMT

I started drinking at six last night and I am still drinking..... I should have stayed home and play-ed warcraft goddamnit!

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 01:01:05 GMT

Soooooooo I have a new hated band! It is no longer the black eyed peas.... and I gave them every opportunity because I had heard such great things.... seven and a half songs later, my ears vomited. Seriously, I have never heard such pussy, vaginized, I-am-just-singing-this-way-to-get-laid, music (if you can call it that) in my life. Really, I wanted to put a bullet in my head and castrate myself cause I didn't want to be called a guy again. And the winner is.......................................drum roll please.......................... DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE!!!!!!!!!! Fuck that shit dude. I mean seriously, Little fuzzy bugs? Come on.